I'm driving a red hot-air balloon. I'm not sure why. I'vegot a friend with me, but i haven't seen him before and i don't know his name. Our balloon breaks and we are landing in a forest. There are very high trees in that forest and we are climbing up the highest. I make it to the top very easily, too easiliy. I enjoy the view for a few seconds and then get back on the ground, From somewhere 2 guys appear. Somehow i manage to fix the balloon in 2 seconds and get in the basket. My friend stays on the ground with the 2 other guys. I'm already in the air, but i can see my friend like im standing next to him. One of the other guys leaves and then my friend punches the on who stayed in the face. I'm like WTF, why? My friend has the "i thought i was supposed to do that" look.
and then it ended...


I'm in a house. We came here with a friend to get something. Not sure what. It is the house of our enemy. We know that he is somewhere here. We move forward and there he is, holding a little gun and starts shooting at us. We take cover. As he gets closer i jump out behind the corner and hit the gun out of his hand. He run away. I take the gun and shoot him back. I miss every bullet. Now i'm the one again who needs to start escaping. I run towards the window, thinking that maybe i can jump through the closed window. I jump and in mid-air i realize that the window is too hard. Somehow i manage to land on the window sill in a sitting position. The enemy starts telling me something and then everything blurs...
Now i'm in the forest near the same house and again i know that i have been here. My friend is holding a sniper and I'm asking him for mine. He says that he forgot mine and gives me his. You could see the house windows from here and movements inside. I know that we are supposed to take them out. Something happens, they are watching at the same place we are. I think that they probably saw my friend, because he is standing. I tell hin to stay here and tell them that you are a bird watcher or something. I start to crawl away and see that a man or two are coming from the house. I run like 100 metres to the right and i see 2 cameras and then i remember why didn't i come here last time. I was like FUUUU-. They probably saw me. And then a guy comes from the left, also with a sniper. We start shooting at each other, but it's hard at such a small distance.
and then it ended...

Im in Sondas' youth centre. There is some party going on, lots of people i know. I want vodka, but for some reason no1 has any. I ask my grandmother for vodka, she says to go home and bring something to drink on vodka. Obviously i wasnt in the mood to go home. I look at the crowd and some people are very drunk. There is alot of food everywhere. I'm feeling that i'm really hungry now. I found some...chinese food?

/\#Hah Monika, thats because of you probably.#/\ 

So i put some of that chinese food on a plate and start to talk around and eat. I move towards the entrance and then see that Karin also came here. I walk to her and she starts hugging me. I hug back with only one hand, because there a plate in the other. She doesnt stop hugging...we are like moving around the room...almost fell on some people. Everybody is already watching at us. And finally we fall. The plate stays in my hand and only some pieces of food fall on the floor. A woman walks in and starts telling me that i should be more respective towards others. And i'm like "I do what i want, so piss off" She doesn't have anything more to say.
and then it ended...

Felt for some days that i have something in my mouth, behind the last upper teeth, find out that these are teeth :O on both sides.

Still feeling the scratches clearly on my back, were they really that deep?!

<3

kore ijou nani wo ushinaeba kokoro wa uru sareru no 
dore hodo no itaimi naraba mou ichido kimi ni aeru 

One more time kisetsu yo utsurowanai de
One more time fuzake atta jikan yo 

Kui chigau toki wa itsumo boku ga saki ni oreta ne 
Wagamama na seikaku ga na osara aishiku saseta 

One more chance kioku ni ashi wo torarete 
One more chance tsugi no basho wo erabe nai 

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo 
Mukai no HOOMU roji ura no mado 
Konna toko ni iru hazumonai no ni 
Negai ga moshi mo kanau nara ima sugu kimo no moto e 

Dekinai koto wa mou nani mo nai 
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo 

Natsu no omoide ga mawaru Uh... 
Fui ni kieta kodou 

Itsudemo sagashite iru yo dokka ni kimi no sugata wo 
Akegata no machi sakura ki Chyou de 

Konna toko ni iru hazumonai no ni 
Negai ga moshi mo kanau nara ima sugu kimo no moto e 
Dekinai koto wa mou nani mo nai 
Subete kakete dakishimete miseru yo 
Show me your complete embrace 

Itsudemo sagashite shimau dokka ni kimi no egao wo 
Kuukou machi no fumikiri atari 
Konna toko ni iru hazu mo nai no ni 

Inochi ga kurikaesu naraba nandomo kimi no moto e 
Hoshii mo no nado mou nani mo nai 
Kimi no hoka ni taisetsu na mono nado


"5 Centimeters Per Second"


Tahaksin tänada Yahna-t tema ilusa kirja eest, mille ta saatis mulle reaalsesse postkasti, mitte virtuaalsesse. Keegi pole mulle nii ammu kirjutanud ja ma ei mäletagi, kas keegi on mulle jõuludeks saatnud kirja. Even if i don't like christmas, that made my day and i read all the things inside the letter. Made me feel good. Thank you. <3


Joon koos Juliaga hetkel, kuigi ta on mingi 130km vms eemal. Cheers!

Looking for a tearjerker movie...
Fucking 8 years...
Enough...

I'm near a schoolhouse. Something is going on. Sports event? I'm walking by some road, and a beautiful girl walks past me...after a minute, again the same girl! Wtf. And then for the third time, she stops and says "I've seen some creepy things, but i'm definitely going to remember this. Then i entered the school. I entered some small room and there was a guy, looked like 14 or so, and he was smoking...afterwards when i checked some other rooms too, he was in all these rooms and smoking. Weird. And i met an old friend...and a girl came there and then the girl i saw before. The beautiful girl was talking about something and i was trying to hide my boner. Don't know what caused it. I was leaning at the door at the same time...and at some point i heard the doorknob moving and then the door opened behind me. I turned and there was a woman there standing with an angry look. I said i'm sorry to her, but we thought she didn't understand. So i said "Izviniitje!" and then she started talking. She asked me to help her to take the pile of glass sheets from here office to somewhere. I picked up the glass and after just a second i dropped them, on my legs. There was broken glass everywhere. And my legs were bleeding badly. As i tryed to get the glass off my feet, i cut my hands too...i started to clean up the mess quickly, bleeding badly and some people watching me...the woman came back from somewhere and asked me to call somewhere, with a bowl of water. So there i was talking to a bowl of water...
and then it ended...

Watch it!

Guy: Do ya wanna play the firetruck game?
Girl: How do ya play?
Guy: I run my fingers (fire truck) up your legs and then you say red light when you want me to stop.
Girl: Ok, lets play.
*few seconds*
Girl: Red Light!
Guy: Firetrucks dont stop for red lights

I lol'd!

Maksim helistas täna mulle ja küsis kas ma tean mingit Kadrit, oma sugulast...ütlesin, et ei tea nagu...siis ta ütles, et mingi Kadri Simson on, telekast nägi xD

Sain täna pinksi mängida üle pika aja, mõnus oli ^^

Uni on.
Lähen näen mingit fucked up und nüüd ^^

I'm in a room, in a building, heavy doors with locks. How can the doors and locks be fine, when i have been here? And last time they were all broken...
At first i didnt get it...then i realized and i was shocked.
There were some people with me also...dont know who they were. I started looking for killing weapons...asked a guy for a gun. He said to look in the lockers. There were none. How the fuck i was supposed to survive? Found a knife...had a better one last time...and a chainsaw...which wasn't working.
Now i could hear them. I backed away from the door. They rammed the door down and rushed in. I was so scared. And i forgot that the only way out from the room was were they came in and the hole inside the right ceiling corner in the opposite side of the room.
I rushed through the room, jumped on the 2 tables and finally squeesed myself quickly through the hole.
Everything blurred.
I was on a higher ground with some people, trying to avoid them. We had to be scared of the animals also now, because they were carrying the infection too. At some point i was running with the others, because we were chased and i had no weapons, except the knife. It wasn't effective anyway, stabbed one of them in the face as i was running and seemed like it did no harm to him/her.
We were also running from bulls.
Again we were at high ground, but some other place.
From somewhere a flock of crows appeared. It was beautiful, but scary. Lucky for us they weren't offensive.
I was standing on a roof now. It collapsed, i was about to fall, i dropped my chainsaw, but i managed to get hold of the edge of the roof. Some girl was helping me. I didn't know her.
If i would've fall i would be dead. They were there, on the ground, waiting to torn me into pieces.

Everythings blurs again...i'm in some city...everything seems to be normal...i'm with some people...i'm looking for the scary red eyes, by what you could recognize them.

Saw some people already prepared, i quess they knew...
As i saw finally saw one coming in the distance i was suprised that people arent moving :o i told them to run, but they werent still moving...stupid people...
I ran with only some of the others...on the roofs...i saw the prepared people whom i mentioned before...they asked to stay with them...took a few seconds before i checked their eyes, i was terrified, but i couldnt say if they were wearing lenses, because they were kind of different...
and then it ended...







a dream.

Peale Klubi Korteri ja Protesti koosüritust "Back to reality" kui mingi täiesti lambikas tüdruk mulle mingit helendavat pastat peale määris. Ma olen suht kindel et ma helendasin see õhtu kõige rohkem.

 Mu täht uduselt millel ma just sinise värgi ära koorisin.:D fucked up.

 Ja veits mu selga mis on tegelt rohkem katki kui seda näha on pildilt. Küünistatud!

...

on 20. detsember ja ma istun hosteli receptioni juures arvutis. nv oli pidu. obviously. üritasin aru saada mis mu käte peale on kirjutatud, pool teksti on segane ja ma ei näe tagurpidi lugeda. ma vist olen ikka veel drunk. ma mõtlen, et miks sa lahkusid. mis hetk käerauad katki läksid ja miks mind nendega üldse kinni pandi. mu käsi on katki, küünistatud, mul on sinikad ühe käe ülemises osas. mu selg on katki, küünistatud, päris korralikult...mis oli põhjuseks? baah...täna pidin töötukassasse jõudma, kahjuks ei liigu busse tagasi sealt nii hilja ja jala ma ei viitsiks üle kümne kilomeetri kõndida. eile käisin Nimeta baaris, or whatever või siis selle kõrval...mul on siuke tunne et see oli geibaar. kõik olid kuidagi imelikud. mingid 2 tüdrukut tegid siimu prillidega pilte ja siis siimust ja lõpuks minu küüntest kah xD

it felt good to hold my arms around you...

If you only knew...

Or knew better...

Or maybe if i knew...

Maybe i dont know...

Maybe i do...

Shit...

Not knowing sucks...

Or does it...

Probably does...

Maybe it's better not to know...

Maybe it's worse...

:S

Ma vist peaks vähem sööma, lähen liiga paksuks. Arvan, et paarist nuudlipakist hommikul aitas tänaseks.
Totaalselt lõikasin täna kipsinoaga peaaegu pool küünt pooleks :S

4 tuba on veel teha jäänud meil siin hostelis, arvatavasti :)

Mõnda aega tagasi hakkas see laul tegelt meeldima.

Täna uuesti kinno vist...

Siimu ja Katriini ning Maarjaga.

Saag 3D-d vaatama?

Tekib küsimus, kas peaks lihtsalt kodus passima hoiduma kòigest ning kòigist...